I don't know what's going on with me lately. It's like I just don't care, or I have an excuse for putting everything off. Maybe it's the shorter days or something, but I am not motivated. Not with my clients, not with my home, not anything. It's like depression, but I still feel happy just not motivated to do anything I should. I find distractions like TV or the Internet or Xbox (loving Halo). I don't know. I do have a lot on my mind with money and the holidays coming up. I have a feeling that's a big part of it, but it's still an excuse. I bet exercise would reduct my stress...everything I read says it does. Ha!
I just want to look nice for the holidays. I want to hear people ask me if I've been losing weight. I want to be able to keep up with my kid when he runs ahead after school. I want to wear cute clothes this summer. I want to not feel HOT all the time!!! I hate sweating. Hate it. You would think that alone would motivate me to lose. Nope. I want to feel good and not feel jiggly.
So I'm not sure where my happy groove of desire to work out went. Or where my motivation went, period. I just hope it's a blip on the radar right now. I'm just grabbing sleep and food randomly when I have time right now. So this isn't even going to be a very good weight loss blog at all until I snap the hell out of this funk.